The title is one of my least favorite lines.I hated it more then i hate bhindi and chelsea. It meant that i was not good enough and not yet ready to go do my thing.it was an excuse, invalid reason i had to live with for as long as i can remember. Just stand by and watch people go places while i was stuck in transit.i know i wasnt supposed to compare myself to other people and that line was repeated to me time and again....
where do we go from here?
My parents werent helping either...i mean for them too their patience had run its course and were starting to wonder if they had made some mistake by not forcing me into the usual maloo excuse for education...science then engg or docters degree....
For some reason i lost everything i believed in because of hearing this line again and again till i got sick of it.
my belief in god was shaken to the point of atheism. my basic human belief in people was no longer there. i stopped being the person i was. i became a shade of what i was my whole life.i dont remember a time before this when i was asked by these many people if i was ok...your not yourself anymore...
maybe they were expecting me to start dancing around and being all funny like the clown i had been...but i had lost my touch over the past one year..i led a very robotic, mechanical life....i mean i could predict my week today...i had stopped being spontaneous and listening to the heart was no longer existent...
BUT now that is all going to change....am done with my 9 hour shifts, with my mundane office work and with just letting people give up on me...Im done not trying to make the change...Its time for me to break free and effect change... today i will say this proudly that my belief is back and back with a bang!
I couldnt thank my parents more and i now believe that there is ahigher purpose for all of us...i know am being filmy when i say everything in the end will be good...But it cant be further then the truth! thank god i was able to not completely lose it and got back just in to see what i was meant to be...
I get what was being told to me all this time when I just took one step back and looked at the bigger picture and realised that YES! MY TIME HAS COME!
Just like Nick Headfield said all those years ago....
HERE I AM....ON THE ROAD AGAIN...
THERE I AM...UP ON STAGE...
HERE I GO...PLAYIN STAR AGAIN....
THERE I GO.....TURN THE PAGE!
