Today i lost a brother. No i will not accept this nonsense that
God wanted him to be in a better place. Yes i am selfish. i Dont want him to go
to a better place. i want him to be there when i get back. no amount words or
gestures will suffice today. i Have lost my closest buddy. my brother. the boy
went away too early. I don't know if i will ever forgive God for what he has
done to us.
I still can clearly see that day when we were 9. I had just
started using the school bus and he was this guy who i only remember seeing
carried around school by his dad. He comes up to were am sitting I can still
clearly hear him say...actually lets be clear i really dont remember what he
said :P but i just remember that we hit it off from day one. and its been a
ride for the past 15 years. never outta sight even with the distance. He always
made freinds easily and had a bunch of friends but for me he was my 'best'
friend. I dont think anyone knows me as well as he did, and we shared
everything... lunch, bus seats, school benches,stories ...memories for a
lifetime i have with my friend.
He always valued his friends over anything else. for someone who
did so well in studies he didnt really even look like he was putting in enough
effort because he would be out with us , screwing around..I owe him a lot in
life and im thankfull that i was able to share so many wonderful years with
him. he put the love for movies and cinema in me. oh how i loved to listen to
him tell me a new movie story. Didnt care if it killed off the suspence for me.
it was his way of saying it. I guess i see now why i love the movies and
acting so much. i could listen to him for hours on end.
No matter how much i hate it that he went so soon i know that he
lived life to the fullest. I am insanely jealous of a guy who was so brave and
awesome . you cared for your friends better then anyone i know. You fought the
fight people would have given up on years ago and you did it with a smile on
your face and a crass joke in your head. when The Hobbit releases this year
what i will miss the most will be your excellent review of it. Hope you will
get to watch it where ever you are. Hope you leave some of the angels alone for
me when i get there brother. I will live my life knowing now that your presence
will be with me. love you bro...miss you so bad...sleep tight...goodbye till we
meet again my brother, my friend R.I.P. Harsh Pande.
P.S. i wont forgive you for the words we parted company with- " arre we will meet when you get back...where will i go man!" words that will haunt me for the rest of my life....
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